I Have A Fear…..

I have a fear…it’s losing you, 

I’ve often thought what would I do? 

When the day comes and you are gone, 

It will be like a melody without a song. 

I drive along and suddenly begin to cry, 

At just the thought of saying goodbye, 

The tears roll down I am overcome by emotion, 

Surrounded by the feelings brought on by the notion, 

That the day will come when you are not here, 

And that Gram is my greatest fear, 

You bring so much joy into our lives, 

Without you how will we survive? 

You’re our backbone, our rock, our glue, 

When I think of happiness I think of you, 

Always cheerful, laughing, so upbeat, 

With you, in my life, I feel complete, 

That is why I fear losing you, 

Because a piece of me would be missing too, 

You’ve been there for me you always listen, 

You offer support without any question, 

I know that sometimes you are sad, 

And long for the companionship you once had, 

I worried about you being all alone, 

Instead, you created a life on your own, 

I admire you so much for your strength, courage, and determination, 

When God made you he made quite a creation, 

In reality, I know that one day your life must end, 

On that day I will lose not only a grandmother but also a best friend, 

I wonder then, what will I do? 

That is my fear, it’s losing you…..

The time has come for you to go back home, 

No more hills to climb, just heaven to roam, 

As sad as I am, my heart is filled with love, 

For now, I have an angel watching me from above, 

I can feel you in my heart and your love will last forever, 

And one day we will be back together, 

You said that you were going to welcome me at the pearly gate and needed to get there before me, 

Until then…”See you, good lady.” 

I love you, Gram! 

Love, Your Baby Doll