A PRAYER IN THIS SEASON

GOD YOU ARE SO GOOD!!!! YOU ARE SO PRESENT AND FAITHFUL! YOUR TIMING IS ALWAYS PERFECT. I KNOW ALL THESE THINGS YET I OFTEN NEED A REMINDER. THESE PAST MONTHS HAVE BEEN HARD! THEY HAVE BROUGHT ME TO THE END OF MYSELF. EXACTLY WHERE YOU WANT ME. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO FUNCTION IN MY OWN STRENGTH. TRYING TO COPE, USING ALL THE TOOLS IN MY HUMAN WORLDLY TOOLBOX. THESE TOOLS DON’T BRING THE PEACE THAT COMES FROM BEING TUCKED IN WITH YOU. SITTING IN STILLNESS WITH YOU. THAT’S WHERE PEACE, STRENGTH AND COMFORT ARE FOUND! LORD, FORGIVE ME FOR PUSHING YOU ASIDE WHILE I TRIED TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT. FORGIVE ME FOR PLACING MY CONFIDENCE IN WHAT I AM ABLE TO DO/BE RATHER THAN WHAT YOU CAN DO AND WHO I AM IN YOU! WHEN WE COME TO THE END OF OURSELVES THAT IS WHERE GROWTH HAPPENS. WHY DO WE TRY FOR SO LONG AND SO HARD? THAT IS CALLED STRIVING. WE DON’T HAVE TO STRIVE WITH YOU. WE REST. WE LISTEN. WE MOVE WHEN YOU SAY MOVE. THAT IS OBEDIENCE. WHATEVER THAT LOOKS LIKE. TRUSTING IN YOUR WILL LORD. NOT MINE. YOUR PLANS, WHICH I KNOW FAR SURPASS MINE!!! THANK YOU FOR BREAKING ME DOWN SO YOU COULD BREAK THROUGH! THANK YOU FOR THE LOVE ONLY YOU CAN PROVIDE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR GRACE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR FORGIVENESS. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PEACE! THANK YOU FOR MY PAIN AND SCARS. MOST OF ALL THANK YOU FOR SENDING YOUR SON, JESUS, WHO SUFFERED DEATH ON THE CROSS FOR THE FORGIVENESS OF MY SINS. I WALK WITH YOU IN ANTICIPATION OF ALL THAT IS TO COME. MY HOPE IS ROOTED IN YOU AND YOUR PERFECT TIMING. GROW ME LORD. LET ME NEVER AGAIN FORGET THAT MY STRENGTH IS FOUND IN YOU AND MY STRUGGLES ARE OPPORTUNITIES TO DRAW NEAR TO YOU WHERE YOU WAIT WITH LOVING ARMS! I LOVE YOU! AMEN!